My CLock is Ticking?

My clock is ticking? tetibe je kuar issue ni..semalam hangout with one of my bestfriend Nani..borak pjg gile..mane taknye.dr lpas attend knduri kawen,kami lpak p minum kt empire..smpi ke mlm beb.masuk belanga sampai teh tarik.naik kmbung la minum.bkn ape..sbb mmg lame da xjumpa nani..pe g da dpt pluang begosip hehehe..bykla.ktorg byk update story memasing..we try to catch up lots of things yesterday ..

Oh ye..myfriend nk tunang bln Jun..jd plan la nk dtg umah die dat day..out of sudden she asked me, how about u? when?? adehh..kalu soalan tang ni yg pling payah skali..so i just replied..i've no idea.. she asked me again.. "sampai bile?" it just came to my thought..yeah, until when ya eha (talking to myself..)

She actually shared with me one thing.. "beauty faded,choose someone who can accepts who u are..ur weaknesses .." then, i'm actually speechless.. *blank* "u still waits for him eha?until when..did he convince u when he will marry u..?" we are getting older eha..we are 28 this year..what if u've waited until 35 but finally he wont marry u..?

Berborak dgn nani smalam mmg membuka mata la..msalahnye byk laki yg aku jumpe semua takat cakap je..tp bile ckp nk bwak jmpe mak bapak xmahu pulak.takut komitmen kot.nasib baikla aku lum bwk mane2 laki jmpe parents..yela..da jd pgangan aku,aku cuma akan bwak laki yg confirm nk kawen ngan aku je jmpe parents..msalahnye org yg aku tggu slama ni xbrani jmpe parents aku..haha.nasibla ko eha.. nape xbrani ek?xready?takut?kalau syg nape nk takut kn..aih..

Dahla malas nk pk..org pn asek dok tanye2 je kn..senang2 aku suh jela parents aku carikan..becinta lpas kawin..ttup ceter kn..hahaha..

Pe pendapat korang?

kak Lang and Me - I have made her cry

Perkara ni terjadi masa 2 tahun lepas masa kak Lang umur 3 tahun..masa tu eha ngan family balik kampung masa raya..kami pulang ke Jelebu, rumah nenek. Jadi satu hari kami nak pergi beraya rumah sedara-mara..kak Lang sampai nangis2 nak ikut Eha..mula2 Eha berat hati nak bawak dia..sbb anak orang kn..takut mak dia tak bagi..takut kak lang nangis2 ke nanti kan..tapi mak kak Lang bagi dia ikut Eha..kak Lang sgt hepi masa tu dpt ikut Eha.. Jadi sepanjang hari kami menziarah rumah sedara sehari suntuk..nasib baik kak Lang tak merengek..baik je..ikut ape yg Eha ckp..senang nak jaga..kak Lang suka manja2 ngan Eha..suka nak dukung ngan Eha,,pegang tangan Eha..cium2 Eha..Eha suka kak Lang manja2 camtu.. ^^ sampai kan ade makcik2 ingat kak Lang tu anak Eha.. (Eha tak kesah langsung org pikir camtu..I feel blessed indeed).

Kami berjalan tak ingat dunia..dari Kuala Klawang sampai ke Rembau sampai petang..kami pun nak pulang ke Klang.sebelum tu nak hantar kak Lang balik kat famili dia dulu..tapi bila da sampai dia tak mahu balik..dia cakap nak ikut Eha balik Klang. depan2 mak dia kak Lang nangis mengamuk nak ikut Eha balik.. (dlm ati..camne nih? Eha takut mak kak Lang pikir lain kang..)

Kami dah takde ikhtiar lain jadi Eha bawak kak Lang pegi kedai beli coklat..gula2..kopok..bagi dia diam ..(konon2 nak pujuk dia jgn nangis la lepas ni..) dah beli tu..Eha dukung kak Lang anta balik kat mak dia..tapi dia tak mahu turun dari Eha..kak Lang peluk Eha kuat2 sebab taknak Eha turunkan dia..pastu dia baling sume barang2 coklat sume yg Eha beli tadi..dia ckp dia tak mahu benda2 tu..die nak ikut Eha..

Eha dah takde cara lain..jadi eha cakap kat kak Lang camni.. "kak Lang ni beratla..mak Long dah tak larat nak angkat kak Lang lagi..!" (Tuhan je tahu perasaan Eha masa Eha ckp cmtu kt kak Lang..dlm hati Eha menangis..)

lepas kak Lang dengar camtu..terus dia pandang muka Eha..dengan muka sayu dia tanya Eha.. "kak Lang berat ye mak Long..?" dengan perlahan..kak Lang lepaskan pelukan..turun dari dukungan Eha..Eha nampak kak Lang sedih..dia nangis perlahan tanpa bunyi..pastu peluk mak dia..Eha tak tunggu lama pastu..Eha tak mampu pandang belakang dah..sebab airmata pn dah mengalir masa tu.. 

"kak Lang maafkan mak Long..mak Long terpaksa buat macam tu.."

kak Lang and Me - she always touched my heart

kak Lang and Me

This little girl called kak Lang is only 5 years old and she is my lovely niece..but sometimes she is acting like she is my own daughter (which I love her doing so..)

  One day..when we were watching TV..and during commercial break..there was one advertisement of Nespray (if i'm not mistaken) featuring a mother and daughter with a music background of.. " ibu.. ibu.. engkaulah..ratu hatiku .." and at the end of the ads..this daughter was hugging her mother..  

   Out of sudden, kak Lang was looking at me closely and said .. " itu macam kak Lang dgn mak Long lah.." (by pointing her small fingers to TV..) and within seconds, by saying "sayang mak Long..... " she hugged me very hard with all her heart and I can see her sincerity by looking into her eyes.. gosh! she almost made me burst into tears.. ( err..actually I did cried..haha..well..don't blame me..it just happen. i can't help myself! )

Actually this is not the first time she touched my heart.. I  shall share with you and might be the series of "kak Lang and me" stories will come out in future..   ^___^

MY TRUE STORY : Ayahku Seorang Pesakit Jantung

Inilah gambar Eha dgn Abah masa Eha kecik2 dulu..masa ni eha mungkin baru nk setahun..tahun 80-an..

MY TRUE STORY..beberapa tahun lepas..ayah Eha kena serangan jantung untuk pertama kali..masuk ward icu ..tak silap umur dia 50 tahun masa tu..then kena sekali lagi 1 - 2 tahun lepas tp lagi teruk kena sebab bkn kena serangan jantung je..tapi paru-paru abah pn berair..jd abah koma masa tu masa doc nak intubate. 

Masa sepanjang malam menunggu di hospital..doc ada suh mak sign satu borang..masa tu keadaan abah kritikal..doc n nurse suruh kami baca surah Yassin..sbb masa tu doc ckp keadaan abah tenat..Eha rushing balik rumah ambil Yassin.. Masa kami baca Yassin untuk abah.. doc bagitau mak yg keadaan abah 50-50..masa tu Eha tgk keadaan abah walaupun koma..tapi muka abah mcm tgh menahan sakit yg teramat..Tiub sana sini cucuk kt badan abah..dan nampak abah seperti menangis dalam tidur..kasihan abah..

Pada pukul 3 ke 4 pagi..kami masih ada disisi abah..doc bagitau mak..supaya panggil sedara-mara datang untuk jenguk abah..masa tu kami mcm blank sekejap..tak tahu nak buat apa..Eha sebagai anak sulung masa tu..banyak yg Eha pikir masa tu..macam2 ada kat dlm kepala masa tu..bila da pagi sikit..Eha call sedara-mara abah kt Perak..yg dekat2 pn Eha call..sbb masa tu doc ckp..abah mungkin 'tak lama lagi'..Masa tu yg Eha tahu Eha tak boleh menangis..jadi Eha tak menangis..Eha kena tabahkan hati sbb kalau Eha sedih mak dan adik2 mesti lagi sedih..Memang masa tu..Eha tak menangis..tapi Eha tak mampu nak bercakap banyak jugak sebab Eha takut suara Eha kedengaran sebak..Eha cuma mampu diam dan senyum ala kadar pada sedara-mara yg sudi dtg jenguk abah kat icu..

Masa abah kat icu..adik Eha, alang dia memang nurse..jadi dia diamanahkan jaga abah dekat icu..sebab dia lebih tahu..tambahan pula dia mmg keje kat ward icu di hospital Tuanku Jaafar Seremban.. sementara Eha pulak..the only one yg tahu drive selepas abah..tugas Eha adalah menjemput dan menghantar mak dan adik2 dari hospital ke rumah..abah ada di icu selama beberapa hari..dan Alhamdulillah..abah ada perubahan positif..abah mula sedar dari koma..tapi abah tak boleh nak bercakap lagi..

Terima kasih kat alang ..sebab alang jaga abah dgn baik masa dalam ward..tak lama lepas tu keadaan abah makin baik dan doktor benarkan abah keluar..tapi kena follow-up dgn IJN every week..

Sejak hari tu..abah betul2 dah berhenti merokok..sebab abah dah serik..abah cakap rasa cm ada gajah duduk atas badan dia..rasa mcm nak putus nyawa..Alhamdulillah..mungkin ini hikmah abah sakit tempoh hari..akhirnya abah nekad juga berhenti merokok. 

Memang abah dah berhenti merokok..da masuk setahun abah berhenti sekarang..tapi abah still kena follow-up dgn doc kt ijn..sbb jantung dan paru2 abah bermasalah..abah kena pergi seminggu sekali..check darah..doc selalu cakap darah abah tak bagus..kadang2 terlalu pekat..kadang2 terlalu cair..abah selalu kena tuka ubat Warfarin ..makan pun abah kena jaga..abah xleh makan mcm2..termasuk sayur sbb takut efek kepekatan darah..air pun abah boleh minum sikit je..sbb paru2 abah tak mcm dulu..abah perlu mkn ubat untuk kencing untuk keluarkan air dr tubuh abah..doc ckp paru2 abah tak macam org normal yg sehat..

Eha ada teman kan abah pegi jumpa doc kt IJN dan temankan abah di wad di ijn..tapi banyaknye doc marah abah sebab heavy-smoker dulu..doc tanya camni.. "encik hisap atau makan..?" bila abah ckp dia hisap 3 kotak sehari..abah kena check-up sebab doc nak uat by-pass. tp doc cakap tak boleh..abah perlu operation..tp bile check ..doc ckp kalau operation pun chances abah untuk hidup after the operation is only 50-50..jadi doc tak sarankan abah operate..jantung abah sangat kririkal..doc samakan jantung abah dgn padang pasir yg tandus..

Keadaan kesihatan abah tak menentu..cepat penat..kadang2 sukar bernafas waktu malam terutama waktu tidur..kami semua risau waktu tu..Jadi satu hari..bos abah suggest abah makan BioDelima..abah makan tiap2 hari..2 kali sehari..Alhamdulillah..lepas makan untuk 3 hari..bila abah pergi check darah..doc cakap kepekatan darah abah dah normal..tak terlalu pekat/cair..

Selepas beberapa bulan..abah hanya perlu pergi IJN 3 bulan sekali..abah sgt lega..sbb takyah nak ulang alik ijn tiap minggu..abah pun tak cepat penat sekarang..abah nampak sehat..sume orang tegur yg abah dah nampak berisi..tak cengkung mcm dulu..Alhamdulillah...dan abah masih makan jus biodelima tu sampai sekarang.. :)

Eha harap kesihatan abah akan sentiasa dalam keadaan baik..InsyaAllah...

inilah jus biodelima yang abah makan..eha malas nk amik gamba..just carik kat google je..sori..gamba agak blur..huhu

BERSIH SANGAT KE??

BERSIH yang diadakan baru2 ni bersih sangat ke.. Pada pandangan saya, biar bagaimana pun fahaman politik seseorang...jangan sampai 'MENGOTORKAN' maruah negara. Sangat menyedihkan bila menyaksikan majoriti peserta perhimpunan BERSIH adalah terdiri daripada masyarakat MELAYU ..Tetapi...nilai2 KEMELAYUAN itu memang TIADA sama sekali (My Chinese Boss told me this and I'm very ashamed) 

Anda mahu berarak menuntut keadilan?? Silakan... Tapi apa perlunya sampai membelasah Anggota Polis yang bertugas..Mereka hanya menjalankan tugas..Mereka bukan bekerja untuk Najib @ Kerajaan...Mereka bekerja untuk MASYARAKAT... Entah mana hilang kesedaran mereka?? Mungkin anggota Polis itu bukan AYAH @ ANAK @ SUAMI mereka..jadi tak mengapa mereka diperlakukan begitu.. Tidakkah mereka terpikir..anggota2 yang bertugas ini ada ISTERI @ ANAK @ KELUARGA yang menanti mereka pulang... Tapi bila susah pandai pula mereka2 ni cari polis.. buat report dan sebagainya...JANGAN KERANA NILA SETITIK HABIS SUSU SEBELANGA...

Lagi satu..apa perlunya MEROSAKKAN Harta Awam..Bukan ke mereka pun menggunakan kemudahan2 yang dirosakkan..Lagi satu..Itu ke PELAJARAN yang kita nak beri pada anak2...Biar anak-anak zaman sekarang belajar SIFAT2 TERPUJI mcm tu.. (RULES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN...IS IT?? Patut banyak budak2 sekolah zaman sekarang makin teruk perangai..agak nya belajar dr perangai2 TAK SENONOH yang mereka nampak dan lihat) 

Sangat MALU bila orang2 luar mula mengutuk2 MALAYSIA disebabkan Orang BERSIH yang TAK BERAPA NAK BERSIH kan...Sepatutnya BERSIH itu mengambarkan sesuatu yang SUCI..IKHLAS... Tapi kalau suci & ikhlas sangat KENAPA DAPAT DUIT PERGI BERSIH?? KATA BERSIH..datanglah SEIKHLAS HATI...
(Tolonglah sedar..dalam hidup ni jangan asyik nak jadi KAMBING HITAM orang lain je)

Tapi BERSIH memang menyusahkan...TREN @ BAS @ PUBLIC TRANSPORT semua TERGENDALA...Macam mana kalau yang Emergency?? Cuba kita bayangkan kalau FAMILY kita yang sakit kena hantar hospital berdekatan di KL Tapi tak dapat sampai sebab mereka2 ni... FIKIR2 LA SENDIRI .... JANGAN NANTI BILA SUDAH TERHANTUK BARU NAK TERNGADAH !!


BERSIH.....WHATEVER YOU DO...I DON'T CARE WHAT IS YOUR POLITICAL THINKING COZ I TOTALLY NOT INTERESTED WITH POLITICS BUT PLEASE DO IT CLEAN & PROPER !!!!!!!!!

Having a bad day~

Dear Blog,

Looks like I've to say sorry to my own diary coz looks like I've been neglected 'her' for you my dear blog..maybe writing on the paper n0t proper for today's situations..

I'm having my bad day...everything is not in place.. all things I did seems not right at all .. what's more can I say..

To be honest, there are times I wanted to cry..but luckily I did managed to control my emotions.. (maybe I can keep it until I'm at home on my bed tonight.. :'(

Today, I've been scolded by an angry customer.. Even though, the mistakes was actually not coming from me..but as a customer service exec I've to face this customer.. Being scolded very loudly in-front public was one thing..another thing was..I've tried my best to calm down this uncle by trying to apologizing with a smile on my face..and I did said.. "Sir..From behalf of ____department, please accept our apology......... (I couldnt finish my sentence coz this customer interrupts) The WORST part was.. he said " I DON'T WANT UR SORRY!... I DON'T NEED UR SORRY!...bla..bla..bla..(keep mumbling all the same thing Again!) very loudly on my face.. I was trying my best to control my patience.. My blood running s0 fast on the vessel as I can feel my face become hot (and suppose to be red).. I'm trying to be nice and polite but seems not enough for this customer.. and I'm feeling humiliate at the same time.. (the problem is..this is very small issue like one of the department forgot to stamped on the document.. that's all..but this customer really pissed off like someone close to him already being killed!...)

This is not the only thing..besides this..there cases which really made me figure-out solutions by my own today..it made me wanted to cry..but I don't want other people to see it..so I keep it to myself..

But n0w..I do feel like crying until my eyes gone red....honestly..at this time..as I'm typing this..I'm crying ..but no sounds as I don't want my sister to figure it out.. only tears running on my face..

bye-bye...looks like I can't control my tears anymore..it's better for me to stop here as my eyes getting blurred to see these words ..

Gudnite..and God bless..

Bila Masa Sesuai Menjadi Isteri..?

Salam..

Diam tak diam, tahun ni aku akan berumur 27 tahun.. (cepatnya masa berlalu kan..) ..Hum..bila da 27..gadis pula tu..mesti la konfem kena 'serang' dengan ayat-ayat biasa.. bila nak kawin?? Apatah lagi kalau adik aku pun akan kawin hujung tahun ni..

Sebenarnya dalam situasi aku..mak ayah belum pernah tanya atau paksa2 aku kawin..tapi pakcik makcik, kawan2..dan orang2 sekeliling lebih prihatin dengan persoalan2 yang macam ni.. selalunya..aku memang jawab dgn skema jawapan yang sgt biasa atau org selalu cakap 'common' ... " oh..lum masa g.." takpun .."mm..tunggula dulu.." tapi sekarang feveret aku ialah.. " muda lagi.." hehehe...(perasan giler.. ;D )

Kadang2 penatla asyik ditanya dgn soalan2 yang aku pun takde jawapan pasti sebenarnya.. isk.. isk..isk..isk.. :'(

Kadang2 aku pening.. ok2..aku akui cousin2 aku pun banyak da kawen..and infact, for my batch i'm d only one left..and it become worst when my cousins which much younger also getting married.. I don't blame them..it's maybe their time already come.. but please don't expect the same thing from me..

To be honest, hati perempuan mana yang tak tersentuh tengok budak2 c0mel..baby cute tu semua..I love kid..I love children..I really do..tapi apakan daya.. maybe the time haven't come yet.. (ikutkan hati nak je amek anak angkat..) -__-!

Tapi aku da nekad dah..kalau masa tu aku umur 29 tahun dan belum kahwin..aku nak mintak mak abah aku tolong carikan calon untuk aku..aku rela je berkahwin dengan orang yang aku tak kenal..mungkin bercinta lepas kahwin la kot.. (tibe2 ter imagine ceter dalam drama tv..haha..hampeh tul!)

After all, manusia hanya merancang tapi Allah S.W.T tentukan kan..? :)

Demam Gemersik Kalbu ..

eleh tgk title ni pon da tau pasal apa kan..hik hik ..rerasa ramai yg terkena virus 'gemersik kalbu' ni especially gurls kot.. sebenarnye aku xdela tgk dr mula2..tp bila da ter tengok terus terjebak..alahai.....(ni yg payah tgk ceter bersiri ni..)


kat umah tu bukan aku jer terjebak..adik aku yg no. 4 tu sanggup turun shah alam g carik novel gemersik kalbu tuh..huhu (sori kak bocor rahsia kau..hehe..) ni novel kt bawah ni..


bagi yg tgk ceter tu..mesti tau kot aqasha yg suweett...sgt.... ^-^ terbuai2 tak perasaan korang.. (cis cis..terserlah lah kegadisan ku..ouch!)sweet sgt kan aqasha.. (bertuahnyer kau raihana...pstt pstt..kalo ko xnak pas kt aku jela ek..hahaha)
tapi suke gak dgr lagu tema ceter ni..'catchy' kan..adik2 aku sume secara spontan dan bersatu padu (sepakat sungguh) nyanyi lagu tu kalu kuar time ceter ni..especially part.....jengjengjeng... " ku gigit gigit ...." hahaha......tapi sweet gk lagu tu kan..especially part yg last2 tuh.. 'gilakan mu ...' auw~ ^_~ (xde ker org nak uat cmni kt aku..ahakz!..weh eha..ni name pon ceter novel..xyah nk berangan la wei - dgn tetiba otak aku bercakap..hihihi..)

okayla..suke ati la nak ckp aku jiwang ke ape..aku nk layan jap lagu kat bawah ni..hikhik..bye2...

Pacat ~

minggu lepas balik kampung..masuk semak sana..semak sini..hahaha..padahnye dapatla 4ekor pacat..yang peliknye..aku sorang je dapat..yang lain maintain jer..maybe pacat kg suka darah o kot..hahaha...tapi pacat ni telah merubah hidup aku la.. gara2 diorang aku allergi..huhu..kaki bengkak susah nk jalan..tumbuh rashes..huhu..parah sungguh..dan sbb dorang aku google pasal pacat ni..haha..never underestimate them okay! ^-^

ni aku terjumpa kat satu blog
Tip apabila terkena gigitan pacat (sumber: http://anizyn.blogspot.com)

Gigitan pacat perkara biasa jika anda memasuki hutan hujan di Asia Tenggara, Afrika dan Madagascar. Tidak seperti hidupan sama di bahagian lain dunia, pacat hutan hujan hidup dalam suasana daun kering dan tumbuhan terutama di lantai hutan.
Ia mencari makanan iaitu darah hidupan berdarah panas termasuk manusia berdasarkan bau dan getaran bunyi yang terhasil daripada pergerakan. Di kawasan tertentu, anda akan dapat lihat hidupan ini bergerak ke arah badan manusia selepas beberapa ketika. Pacat darat sangat halus tetapi boleh membesar sehingga 10 kali daripada saiz asal selepas menghisap darah.

Cara paling mudah untuk mengelak gigitan pacat dengan memakai stokin atau seluar panjang menutupi bahagian bawah badan. Anda boleh melumurkan kaki dan tangan dengan minyak panas atau minyak cap kapak. Jangan terlalu takut terhadap hidupan ini kerana ia tidak menyebarkan jangkitan dan hanya menyebabkan kecederaan kecil. Anda tidak akan terasa digigit kerana ia menyebarkan anestetik apabila ia menghisap darah.


Namun, untuk mereka yang memiliki kulit putih gebu atau manja (sensitif), gigitan pacat turut memberi kesan apabila meninggalkan kesan parut yang ketara


Cara betul untuk alih pacat
# Pacat akan terjatuh selepas kenyang. Namun, jika anda mahu mengalihkan ia lebih awal, kenal pasti bahagian gigi pacat yang berfungsi menghisap darah di salah satu hujung, lazimnya di bahagian lebih nipis.

# Secara perlahan, gunakan jari telunjuk untuk mencabut bahagian pacat yang menghisap darah daripada kulit. Gunakan satu lagi jari untuk memisahkan hujung satu lagi yang lebih gemuk. Pada proses ini, pacat lazimnya akan cuba untuk kembali melekat ke kulit.

# Selepas mencabut pacat, pastikan anda membersihkan kesan luka untuk mengelak jangkitan. Hidupan itu tidak beracun, namun mungkin rasa gatal dan tidak selesa.

# Jangan gunakan api rokok, ubat nyamuk, losen antiserangga atau menarik secara pantas untuk mengalihkan pacat daripada kulit. Cara ini mungkin memberi kesan lebih teruk kerana ia memberi luka lebih dalam dan kesan parut.

# Jika ia menghisap darah di bahagian telinga, hidung atau mulut, anda mungkin mendapat masalah kerana pacat menjadi gemuk apabila kekenyangan, sekali gus boleh membawa kesan parut atau cela di muka.

# Jika secara tidak sengaja mendapati ia di mulut, gunakan alkohol atau hidrogen peroksida untuk berkumur. Jika terpaksa, gunakan objek keras.

Sambung Baca: http://anizyn.blogspot.com/2010/05/tip-apabila-terkena-gigitan-pacat.html#ixzz1jfvPMBwD

Those I misses s0 much

Suddenly, I've been missing some of my friends that I used to keep-in-touch before.. But under some circumstance, we don't catch-up each other stories anymore through phone or seeing each other..even though sometimes I'd like to know their latest stories.. there is something stop me from doing that.. coz some of these friends are married or have very busy life..I am scared if I call them, it might be disturbing.. so what can I do is always active on my FB..so that I can be updated with their stories..(even though not knowing all the news directly..) I'm happy if I saw my friend's story like getting married or updates about their pregnancy..wish to say congratulations..but that's not what I do..what I do is..I only pray for their happiness are for ever which this is what I think I can do best for them.. Aminn..

sometimes..I'll remember all the pieces of the sweet memories when with them..it can make me laugh, smile, or even cry sometimes..(I know.. most of my friends said that I'm look colder..but they wouldn't know that I'm very fragile inside actually..)..
But I do appreciates all the memories which I shared with them..I will keep them deeply in my heart..

I misses them.. but at the same time I'm really happy for them..as they already found what they need and what they want .. I wish nothing but the best for them ..

I guess this is what people called as a 'life-cycle'.. U have to bear with it.. It is n0t a choice for you to choose..Either u want it or not.. this is the life cycle~

True Story : A Friend of Mine

What is the meaning of a friend to you? Honestly, I do feel like the idea of true friends are bring-out the best of each other.. and I'm blessed with so many good friends surrounding me for all this while..

But I do have a friend which I believe is not a true friend..this is the first time I'm facing this kind of friend.. A friend who only think about herself..all nothing but herself.. It just after awhile for me to realized that she has been using me for her own benefits..Nowadays, whenever I'm thinking about her..it makes my heart broken ..

Let's named her as Z (not a real name). she was my friend since primary school (such a long time,huh!) yet, we don't have good record back then.. During school, we tend to argue about small things..what I remembered, I couldn't accept her behavior (she seems to be jealous whenever I've got better than her like grades we got for exams) .

When we're in Standard 6.. She's got an A for Math but I only got B. That's make she feels winning over me (which I was s0 heartless about it..bla..bla..bla..it's not a big deal) So...that day she just rushing to get home and telling her mother the result and plus, so kindly 'informing' my mom about it..well, after I reached home, I saw her mother inside my house talking with my mother (even heard she was gladly telling my mom how proud she was for her daughter..daa..) (Isn't they're the perfect combo of mother and daughter..)..I just ignore whatever she done to me..

But when we got UPSR result..I managed to get 4A's 1B and she got 3A's 2B's..I'm not saying that I'm very good but the result seems fair enough..Finally, her mom cannot say anything to my mother..

After primary school, we seems to lost contact coz her family was moving to Perak..but managed to reunite again after diploma time..since then we keep in-touch..

If she's got problem..she'll always look-out for me because she doesn't have so many closes friend..as a friend, I'm always trying my best to help her out every time..

Before she get married, she was out of money and asking for my help..you wouldn't believe what she asked me to do..she did asked me to apply for personal loan so that she can borrow that money from me.. (how selfish she can be..i hardly can sleep when think about her problem..how she could think all about herself only..she was even didn't let me tell anyone about asking me to apply that loan..)

The truth is ..I was nearly apply for that loan but luckily I did asked my colleagues for some advise (they said I shouldn't risk my life because someone else like that..what if she cannot pay and the bank will chase after me - for quite some time I think it all over again and I find it is true..) and even I didn't apply for that loan I did lend her some money..it was not that much but if added hundreds it'll become thousand..It was nearly 1 year plus but yet, i haven't received the money. As what she promised me earlier, she'll pay as soonest possible.. (but until now only silence feels the air..) (Luckily I don't apply the loan..silly me! if not I'm the one who troublesome now.. )

There was one day when she doesn't have transport from LRT Kelana Jaya (coz she took lrt to kl for work) she did asked for my help..i did come from Subang Jaya to pick her up even though I had no idea where the lrt is.. (I'm kinda of scared to explore the new area coz I'm always easily get lost..but because of her, I have to face it.. :/ )..she was even request me to come as soonest possible (who's car actually? I don't get her -_-! ). she always looking for me when she needed for help but I don't think she'll do the same for me..so sad to have friend like this.. :(

There was one night when she into a fight with her husband..she asked me to pick her up at komuter klang because she doesn't want her husband pick her..Can u imagine..?? I did.. Then, after reached home when she find out that her husband not at home she asked me to follow her to futsal court (where she thought her husband was..) I did followed her.. and she get into big fight with her husband and even scolded her husband in-front of other people..how childish she was..but better for me to not interfere with their problem..then after crying she asked me to accompany her back home..I did..and after that i decided to go home (it was already 11 pm..so dark..and i was all alone..she wasn't even think about me..all about her..).
After I reached home, my parents waited for me and I was even get scolded by my father for trying to 'interfere' to their prob but actually that's not my intention..I was even cried that night.. :_(

There more about her which I realized as selfish...but I don't want to remember it now..

These situations make me realized that she just using me for her own benefits..It is not that I wanted to reveal bad things about her..but writing makes me relief..writing makes me comfortable to express my feelings and emotions..

To Dearest Friend...

I wish that this year I'm not knowing another friend like you .. I wish you are happy with ur life now..please don't behave like this to other people..if not you'll not having good friend though..

because I do believe ..

" A TRUE FRIEND BRING OUT THE BEST OF EACH OTHER "

Good Bye ..

New Year - Gathering at hist0ric place (part 1)

Finally, last week jadi pun kitorang jumpa for new year..itu pn setelah diusahakan oleh cik dya pd awalnya..ni membe2 masa skola menengah dulu..satu hostel kat kg pandan dulu..da besa2 sume hihi..tp xramai pon leh kumpul sebab ramai da jd wife org n mak budak..tapi ade gak wife orgjoin..hehe..(thanks cik nani sudi join)..yang lain2 single lagik cm dard, dya, ain, zie, siti n eza..sesapa single nk usha2 leh la saya tolong ..hehe..tapi eza n dard rase da 'taken' kot..he ..xpe2..yg lain2 single weh.. ^-^

sabtu pg, 31st dec 2011 siti da tggu kt mcd andalas kul 8.30pg tp aku lmbat sikit sbb check kete pape yg patut pastu after pick-up siti, kitorang g pick-up eza kat umah dia johan setia..pastu kitorang terus shoot g kfc federal shah alam tu..tggu zie, dard ngan nani smpai..pe lagi mkn2 dulu weh..laapaa... -_-! Ni our breakfast crew dat day..
nani, siti, e-ha
eza, zie & dard

berselera kami makan..err..maksud aku..cm aku sorang je selera sgt..yela aku sorang je yg beli extra++..haha..yg lain2 satu set je...haha.. ^-^ pastu gerak la ngan senang ati..

inila telatah kami bila kt trafic lite..kete zie pn kami capture..hehe..



sian dya ngan ain da smpai awal kat R&R Seremban..jd kami shoot la..lebih kurang kul 11pg sampai sana..sempat g kami posin2 dlm kete..

sampaila cik dya ngan cik ain sampai ke kete kami..hihihi...
adegan sesi kejar-mengejar bermula..laju juge cik ain bwk kete..aku tgh2 nk kejar ain n tggu si zie..tapi yg syok nye..dlm kete kitorang leh mkn donut ngan eskrem lagik! haha..jgn jeles..
sampaila kat melaka..
sampai kt melaka kitorang berpecah sbb susah dpt parking..lost weh nk carik bebudak ni..yela..dorang bg direction belah dorang..kitorang pk belah kitorang..penin2..sorang utara..sorang selatan..

Bila Sudah Hilang ...

Aku sebenarnya selalu mendegar berita kematian tetapi berita pakcik ku (abg sulung abah) meninggal dunia pada 09/11/11 yang lepas sgt terasa dijiwa. Aku mendapat panggilan telefon sepupuku, Min lebih kurang jam 3:00 ptg waktu itu..aku seperti tak percaya sehinggakan aku bertanya berulang kali..betulkah?betulkah?ku ingat sepupuku Min main2 je..(tapi mana mungkin hal kematian dibuat main... Bila sepupuku seorang lagi, abg Man telefon beritahu perkara yg sama barulah aku benar2 percaya..lalu baru ku telefon abahku, aku mencari2 perkataan yg sesuai kerana takut abahku terkejut..(abahku ade sakit jantung..sbb tu sepupu pn xberani bgtau sendiri)

Aku tak tunggu lama..aku terus minta izin bos ku untuk pulang. Terus aku memandu balik ke rumah..sepanjang perjalanan fikiran ku agak kurang waras..mana entah melayang.nasib baik tak langgar divider jalan kat highway shah alam.nanti tak pasal2 org kena jenguk aku pulak! ahh memang kusut time tu.aku teringat tentang arwah pakcik masa tu.memori berputar2 dalam kepala.

Sampai dirumah,kami berkemas2 barang..angah pn nk ikut jadi ambil dia dulu kat kelana jaya pastu baru pegi kuala kangsar..punyalah jam sbb lebih kurang kul 6ptg kami lum lepas KL lagi..masa tu ku lihat abahku xsenang duduk..dia nk drive walaupun banyak kali ku offer..aku faham perasaan abah..masa tu abah shoot 150-180 km/j..mmg laju...masa otw balik..aku pulak asyik teringatkn arwah pakcik ku..

aku sedikit terkilan sbb raya tahun ni mmg aku tak balik kuala sbb kena anta adikku,masuk belaja UTM..sbb 2thn berturut yg lepas aku balik walaupn sorang2..arwah pernah suruh bila next time balik tidur rumah dia pulak..tapi xberkesempatan..sebelum ni abahku selalu suruh telefon arwah pkcik ku ni..tapi aku hanya buat sekali sekala (menyesal pun tak guna kn!!)sbb masa tu aku pikir takpe..masih ada banyak masa lagi..esok pon boleh...(sekarang...esok pun dah tiada lagi..)Arwah pakcik ku mmg baik orangnya..orangnya suka tersenyum..ambil berat org lain..suka tolong orang..pemurah..kalau nak cerita banyak lagi..tapi apa gunanya kalau aku cerita sekarang..orangnya sudah pergi..(aku mula menyalahkan diri..)


Bila abah shoot 180km/j sepupuku mula tanya2 kitorang da smpai mana sbb jenazah nk dibawa ke kubur..abahku mula kurang senang..ahh banyak betul dugaan nk sampai..minyak time tu la nak abis..jalan jam..ade tereler gas slow gile kt depan..terus je kami shoot g kubur masa tu..sampai2 je org tgh baca talkin..(tak terduduk ko time tu) time tu da tecengang2 la kami kat belakang..aku tgk abah..abah terdiam..kami pun diam..org baca doa.kami tadah tangan..aku tgk abah lagi..abah duduk sorang2..aku tahu abah sedih..tak sempat tgk abangnya..

Abis doa,kami salam2 ngan sedara-mara kat situ..abahku peluk abangnya yg no.2..abah menangis seperti meraung..pertama kali ku lihat abah menangis seperti itu..aku lihat makwe (isteri pakwe,isteri arwah pakcik ku) dia seperti longlai..kakinya seperti tak bertulang..dia perlu dipapah untuk bangun dan berjalan..melihatkan makcik yg begitu aku tahu emosinya pasti terjelepok..mana kan tidak..sepanjang hayat arwah, aku tak pikir dia melayannya dgn baik..mungkin dia menyesal kerana itu..(seperi kata abahku..dia pastinya menyesal tak sudah..) tapi nak menyesal pun dah tak guna kan?! kalau buka cerita satu persatu pastinya makcik ku ni nampak buruk..tapi biarlah itu menjadi sejarah..pakcik ku dah tiada..aku harap dia dapat pengajarannya..

Semalam sebelum pulang ke rumah kami pergi melawat kubur arwah lagi..petang itu sgt damai..kawasan kubur pn redup..setelah sedekahkan AL-FATIHAH..aku seperti bercakap2 dgn kubur arwah..aku pegang pokok kecil yg ditanam.. "Pakwe, along dtg..maaf dtg lambat.." dgn xsemena2 angin kuat berhembus beberapa saat pastu keadaan tenang semula..seperti ada yang lalu disitu.. (munkin roh arwah pakcik ku ada kat situ..aku senyum..aku gembira..ahh..biarlah korang nk pikir apa pn..aku pasti roh pkcik ku tahu aku ada kat situ..dia dengar apa yg aku ckp..)

Walaupun ada kekesalan di hati aku..tapi aku berazam untuk tidak lupa mendoakan pakcik ku disini..AL-FATIHAH..Semoga dia ditempatkan di kalangan org yg beriman..Amin..

Jadi kwn2..korang hargailah masa yg korang ada ngan orang tersayang cm ibubapa..famili..sebab jgn jadi macam aku.. BILA SUDAH HILANG ...

*~ Broga Hill Adventure ~*

Hello there...

Kinda busy lately...hehe..urm...what i wanted to share now is what I've experienced last Thaipusam holiday... :)
January earlier, my close friend Jaja did asked me whether to join her and her colleagues to 'conquer' the Broga Hill... (at first,when heard that idea..i was just like..what??? where on d earth the hill is..never heard that name before...huahuhahua...s0...i've been thinking very clearly...kinda of is it dangerous..?and all those stuff.....haha - this is because i'd no idea maaa......)s0....i've been like searching for the info on Google (what else right??)....then i know...where it is... (its located in Semenyih...for ur info..) actually that place quite famous (that what i saw from online result..quite number of blog did write about Broga...)

this friend of mine make up the planning on 20th January 2011 as this was holiday s0 definitely everybody don't have to work right?....she made the plan very clearly for everyone by sending us email all about this adventure details..kind of the tentative program...what attire to wear..the attendees..and what the must item to bring..isn't perfect??? (actually i personally do appreciate the nice job done by Jaja.. - thanks a lot ja... )

And...guess what?? i did join...i do think i've made the right decision by joining them to conquer the Broga Hill....what a g00d started of the year 2011..........

ok....lets talk about business.....hehe... On the 19th Jan..i've made plan with Jaja to stay over at her place because we need to assemble on the next morning at 4.45AM..?? ( i dont think i wanted to drive alone on that hour in the morning.......- hell n0t!! )

Actually i did felt that both me and Jaja very excited about this plan....because we never made such plan before....so that night we kept talking and chit-chat about the plan.. (we both even bought the shoes for this..haha...but Jaja even better - 2 shoes...!! but its ok ..its for comfort and safety..) Oh mine...not to mentioned how we spent money buying things in Giant Supermarket for things like drinks..foods..to bring over....( kinda of we are going to picnic babeh..!! haha... ) we slept at 1AM... (Jaja still dont actually..i cant open my eyes already..uhu) and we supposedly have to wake up at 2.30 AM...daaaaa.......

I woke up at roughly 2.30 AM..and after that i wake Jaja up....then fell asleep again....hehe..s0rry Ja..... -_-! what i know at 3 o'clock Jaja turns to wake me up... (to get bath for sure.....) the cold water in the morning really make my day.......huahua.. ( my sleepy eyes really opened!! ) then...what's REALLY make my day was actually a cup of MILO made by Jaja...hehehe... (who on earth will willingly to make u a cup of Milo for that kind of time in the morning...) i did asked Jaja..why u made us Milo..she said..." we need energy..." whoaa.. (when u are really want to conquer the Broga..u'll know what i meant my dear friend....)

At 4.30AM we arrived at Zuellig Pharma (Jaja office) we waited for her colleagues to be arrived...we departed to Broga at 5AM if i'm n0t mistaken....we did stop at McDonald for our breakfast..

u know what REALLY surprised all of us..??? when we arrived ...there were lot of people....lot of cars........and we even had to wait to actually park our car... (believe me..there were hundreds of people...nearly thousand...HAVOC like Pasar Malam...) - how they can make business RM2 per car...

OH..!! One more thing...please don't repeat our mistake... (i guess we were too excited that moment! ) we don't even do any warm-up or do any stretching.......brrr... (really affected you on the next morning..haha... - but it's really worth an effort ~ )

with everybody had one Torchlight ..not only us okay...everybody who came....seriously...that was kind of really expedition with large number of people... (even when u hiking, u need to wait for ur turn.. - the more the merrier isn't?? ^_^ )

during the hiking to up..I've been separated with my group...but think it was okay..because got people anywhere..no need to scared ~ actually there are part not difficult to hike..but some part you really need to take more precaution because it's s0 slippery... Never mind...that's what a friend for - help each other lorrr.....

Ohh... i think.. lot to tell u guyz...but really had no time....
why n0t i juz share my pictures to tell the whole story...isn't perfect?? hehe.....




this pic captured when i was actually slide down..haha (even published in KOSMO - Horizon 19th Feb'11 - my boss told me...haha..)



me & nana..after sliding.......wheee........happy..........

we gurls..really love to posed isn't??

u dont see the challenge by this pic...but wait till u experienced it urself..

at last...................our destiny~ -_-!


waiting for ur turn to climb up~



didnt i mentioned earlier?? HAVOC!!

In Loving Memory: Amirah Anuar

Dear Diary,

This morning i received a news about a friend...she's gone FOREVER..and will never see her again...
and out of sudden..it makes my day cloudy..i dunno why..even though she wasnt my best friend but..there is something about her that i can indicated as special..yah! she's special...

Her name Amirah Anuar..taking diploma coarse in UiTM Segamat Johor few years back like me..we were only 19 that time..that time..i was very adored with her sweet smile and pretty face..she had soft voice..obviously...i really admiring her 'beauty'..but we dont talk too much that time..

After one year, i heard she had cancer and had to extend the semester..(no wonder i havent seen her for a long time in campus) but from the stories i got from a friend that close to her ..once again...i adored her! admired her spirit and courage to go through all this..she lost her right leg..but she managed to continue her study..and deep in my heart.. "she is special.."

after finished my diploma..since then i havent heard about her anymore..till this morning..i found that her fight against cancer finally over...and it's really drag me until evening to recover my 'cloudy' feeling..

I believed she had been loved by all her family members..her friends..because she was a lovable person..

Deep in my heart..i know she will rest peacefully there..AL-FATIHAH..

"Amirah..you are a beautiful lady...your strength is our inspiration..your spirit and courage through these years will be remembered"

Amirah..WE LOVE YOU..YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MISSED ...

LoVe SuMonE can Be Suck..But n0T When U L0vE bAkInG mUFFiN ^ ^

dear Diary...

long time i haven't being here..

miss u a lot..

from now on..i think i do want to put everything about love aside..love makes me tired..

i'm thinking i want to do something more..something different..something challenging..but i cannt recognized it now yet. tell u later when i got one.. ^ ^

at d moment i have new h0bby - baking muffin....yummy~ it was really a go0d feeling when i can give my family, my neighbour to taste d muffin....hehe..not bad kan~ actually it makes ur relationship with others become better..

after trying 3different recipes..- chocolate chip, double c0c0, n vanilla.... i'm really addicted to bake d muffin..hehe....

search kat google pn carik recipe..haha...

NOW..i LOVE muffin ....really DO ~

ALRITE...time for work...

c ya..! ^_^

~Bougainvilla Resort~

last wekend....i went Malacca n having good time with some of best friends of mine there...after that we moved to the resort...the two days that i spent really unforgettable...
s0 sweet the thought they left me when they celebrated my birthday in advance...
actually i was shocked with half-eyed sleepy on that moment to have cake in-front of my eyes....brrr....quite blurr... thanks guyz....really appreciated that...to nani...maw...badang....k-run...i'm lucky i'm having u all as friends.....
not forgotten on how we spend the afternoon at Malacca..................CRAZY for museum..ahakz!! we like tourists...from overseas just to get to know Malaysia.....posed here n there...hehehe... and plus..............we ate alot.....hahaha nice nice...the resort is in Port Dickson...very homey...u should try..........

i dun think u sh0uld read this ~

Dear Diary... last friday i went for PAC (PTD Assessment Centre) this is a 2nd stage after passed the examination.. the whole day program did gave me new perception of people..new experience..new knowledge and even new thought.. i've been seeing and meeting with different type of people which makes me realized..human are all d same n wats make they differ is how they carry their attitude n how they behave.. sometimes..people may like u or maybe hate u..its individual characteristics dat makes u different from others.. thus..dat s0 obvious..how people trying to manipulate you n people here tend to compete you in any ways..which they might even makes you look foolish infront of others n d moderator..which makes me wonder somehow.. this i can relate this situation to 'cruelty'... as for me..i believed..i have been being my true self during the whole program.. anyway..its a good exposure to me..how well and how true man can be..